My mechanics always arrive with little televions, and on the screen I can see myself standing there, about to start whatever thing I've been procrastinating on, completely unprepared. And failing horribly.
I prefer deeply held intrinsic motivation, but when the moti is broked, sometimes I just go for the big horsewhip to get it moving again.
I am just sad because until this Monday, I was Miss Intrinsic Motivation 2006 and they were going to give me a sash and tiara and everything. Then it went bye. :/
It's unfortunate that one of the most demotivating things is the original loss of motivation itself. It's like the main cause of panic attacks not being fear, but fear of being afraid.
One of the theories behind the evolutionary value of depression was that it kept people close to home, so they didn't go out cheerfully wandering around and get eaten by lions. I think that's one of the things sadness and pain can do on a smaller scale - it cuts out that desire to be in the world, and replaces it with something much more akin to wanting to be out of it for a while, to let raw skin roughen again and wounds close.
If I have to, I always just force myself forward again, but I don't think that's the healthiest route. Maybe, if you don't have to be Miss Intrinsic Motivation right this second, you could just curl up for a bit?
And then of course I go back to the topic of the post, which is that it is Midterms, a summarily hard time to be just curling up for a bit. Pardon my ineptitude - my hour is late.
One of the best things about moti, even when it is broked, is that it does always fix itself somehow. Moti is loyal and true, even if sometimes a little undependable.
Maybe instead of mechanics with little TVs of fear, they can be little TVs of inspiration - getting things done, with grace and skill and verve and a certain mysterious air that makes everyone around you wonder how you do it.
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My mechanics always arrive with little televions, and on the screen I can see myself standing there, about to start whatever thing I've been procrastinating on, completely unprepared. And failing horribly.
I prefer deeply held intrinsic motivation, but when the moti is broked, sometimes I just go for the big horsewhip to get it moving again.
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It's unfortunate that one of the most demotivating things is the original loss of motivation itself. It's like the main cause of panic attacks not being fear, but fear of being afraid.
One of the theories behind the evolutionary value of depression was that it kept people close to home, so they didn't go out cheerfully wandering around and get eaten by lions. I think that's one of the things sadness and pain can do on a smaller scale - it cuts out that desire to be in the world, and replaces it with something much more akin to wanting to be out of it for a while, to let raw skin roughen again and wounds close.
If I have to, I always just force myself forward again, but I don't think that's the healthiest route. Maybe, if you don't have to be Miss Intrinsic Motivation right this second, you could just curl up for a bit?
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One of the best things about moti, even when it is broked, is that it does always fix itself somehow. Moti is loyal and true, even if sometimes a little undependable.
Maybe instead of mechanics with little TVs of fear, they can be little TVs of inspiration - getting things done, with grace and skill and verve and a certain mysterious air that makes everyone around you wonder how you do it.
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