leahbobet ([personal profile] leahbobet) wrote2010-02-03 09:59 pm

Employment, entitlement, and the arts.

All right, kids, buckle up. I'm going to ramble a bit.


[livejournal.com profile] matociquala posted last night on her workweek and how long it takes her to write a book. What this post is actually about, although it comes clearer in the comments, is another aspect of the question that spurred it: The perception of authors as overpaid, spoiled, wealthy, greedy or...maybe just indulged members of our society. The perception, in short, of art as a class of work valued less than other classes of work.

I tangle with this thing a lot.

I am a working writer. No, I am not a writer who has a novel in print (and we'll get into the hobbyist perception that goes with that another time), but I am a writer who has been writing for eatin' money since early 2003 or so, which is when I started being reliably paid for stuff. Trufax: in second year I regularly paid my phone bill with the dribs and drabs of money from poetry sales. Writing still composes a non-major, but non-trivial part of my household income: My support staff and moderation gig at the OWW helps me keep chipping away at my school debt, and Shadow Unit, while not even remotely paying for the time we put into it at this juncture, kicked me enough cash last year to cover a month's worth of groceries and (non-rent) bills.

As [livejournal.com profile] truepenny has pointed out this week it's very hard to make ends meet as a writer. So unlike Bear and Sarah, I am also the proud possessor of a full-time Dayjob with really solid benefits.

My Dayjob is in the public sector, which is another place with some class-of-work issues.

There was a point early last year, when I was still fairly new to the job and quite blissful about it (I have a truly great office full of truly awesome persons) where I got very upset about my inability to communicate to people outside government that I really liked my brand new job. Any enthusiasm I had about my work would be automagically translated into Well, must be nice to have it that good and not have to work hard. You're having fun? Is that my tax dollars at work? The base assumption was that because clearly all public servants are spoiled and lazy and sheltered by the hand of a government employer, the enjoyment I got out of my job must be from lying on the couch and eating bonbons instead of pounding steel all day like real manly men doing actual, real work. It couldn't be that I had a good boss, good co-workers, and interesting, intellectually stimulating work; it must have been that my work was not legitimate, not demanding. To this day, I quite literally cannot talk about anything fun that happens in my office -- silly water cooler stories, lunch table anecdotes, nothing -- in mixed company without getting some form of blowback. Period.

I've learned to work around and weather the thing since, but it was actually quite hurtful. I couldn't share a good thing about my life anywhere but with my most trusted friends. It was like trying to show someone a butterfly and having the thing -- and your hand -- pissed on and then set on fire.

So basically I get shafted coming and going on this one. Of the 60+ hours of work I put into an average workweek, none of it is considered valued or legitimate work outside of my various insider circles. I have one career where I have to step carefully if I want to express the most basic pride in my work, and one career where I have to step carefully if I want to utter the mildest complaint about it.

And that means I'm sort of fascinated by the psychology behind perception of work: Why and how do we decide which fields of work are more "real" than others? How have we somehow accorded legitimacy to some -- totally necessary -- functions in society and yet routinely disparage other -- totally necessary -- functions? Why do normally right-thinking people open their mouths and drop these assumptions onto the floor every day?


I think about this a lot. I tangle with it a lot.

I think it's something to do with a class of products or services that, to people without expert knowledge, seem to self-create or self-maintain; that we feel have always been there. It's to do with the nature of work where, when it's done right, the worker isn't even noticed.

Let me go into that a bit.

People get pissed off at customer service or restaurant wait service if it's obtrusive. People only notice that grocery store stockpersons exist when something's not on the shelf. People only remember the existence of the Ministry of Transportation when there's a pothole. People get pissy at subway repairs because the inherent and subtextual expectation is that while of course subways need to be fixed, the fixing of them should be invisible. We should never see it happen, or it has essentially failed.

People only notice the author in the text, like the waiter or subway repairman or stockperson, if they feel something has gone wrong.

If we do our job right, the logic goes -- and I'm not getting into whether this is right or wrong today -- the reader shouldn't even see us. One paragraph at the back of the book saying general things about our pets, maybe where we live. Standard words at the front about who made this book possible; all very much to the forms. Look at the emphasis that creates, just by inference: the important thing is the book. We, the authors, should be completely occluded, completely obscured by the text itself.

When I pull off a good story, a paragraph that crunches into someone's chest like a wrecking ball, the book's there in their vision and it's fifty feet tall, bright as noon, eating up everything and roaring like a cannonball.

I'm not.

I'm invisible.


Here's the problem with that notion of successful art -- a notion that okay, I can't really argue with. The notion of text that lives head and shoulders above its author, text that takes on a life of its own and forms a relationship with the reader that the author really has no part of is really kind of glorious. I think a lot of us crave it a bit: making something that's bigger than us.

Thing is, it gets really hard to assert the personal or financial rights of invisible people.

This is why the argument against writing fanfic of works whose authors are uncomfortable with it never gets anywhere. This is why things like arts grants, book prices, royalty statements, financial need are considered faintly distasteful topics in a lot of writing circles, or why we talk about them in lowered tones or prescreened company. This is why it's such a big deal when an author "goes nuts" and engages readers who criticize their book, their lifestyle, their looks, their person, and why that behaviour is stomped on and stigmatized so hard. This is why reactions such as that which occurred on the Kindle forum about this Amazon kerfuffle happen. To the greater reading public, authors are invisible people. We don't exist, and therefore neither do our needs.


The question becomes, then: how to create fiction that stands like a pillar of fire in someone else's brain, to not get between my fiction and its reader, and yet, keep myself firmly in existence?

That one's for you, team. I am sadly out of answers tonight.

[identity profile] dichroic.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure I agree with all of that, though definitely with some. as far as the issue of dignity and status of work, there are two groups of people I think are getting conflated: the trained monkey idiots ("You get paid for writing books? A trained monkey could do that!") and those who envy authors and others who get to do the work they love. I think the latter is perfectly reasonable, when it comes with the realization that beloved work is still work - and still not easy (especially for anyone working two jobs, or three books at a time, or whatever it takes). But the latter are certainly outshouted and probably greatly outnumbered by the trained-monkey crowd.

On the second point, I was reading a great essay last night by Anne Fadiman (it's in At Large and At Small discussing two conflicting viewpoints: that the author doesn't matter and the work must speak for itself; and that the author does matter and thus e.g. Moby Dick is less valuable because Herman Melville beat his wife and was a horrible person. She argues for a middle ground, understanding what's written in context of the author and her times (not banning Huck Finn because it's anti-racist by 19th c. standards but not 21st c. standards) but also using one's own viewpoint in one's own reading experience (feeling included within the male-centric terms used in the Declaration of Independence). I probably haven't explained it well; Fadiman says it much better.

[identity profile] pnkrokhockeymom.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
This? This is a very good, thoughtful post and you should feel good. I agree and empathize with an awful lot of this, dayjob and writerly things alike.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure I agree with all of that

Agreeing with me isn't usually a requirement for hanging out here. *g*

Huh. I think I must hunt that essay up, and yeah, I am getting what you're saying. People get really...convenient about the pertinence of the author and the author's politics when it comes to evaluating or judging a work. It's everything when it suits the reader and then nothing when it suits the reader, and yes, those are both extremist black-and-white positions and every extremist black-and-white position will inevitably run into a situation when it fails utterly to serve anyone's needs anywhere.

Maybe it's just because I am an Enemy (tm) to biographical criticism, but that hop on the tracks of logic where the author can and can't be important to the reading of the work has never quite sat right with me.

[identity profile] wldhrsjen3.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
Really interesting post, and a topic I'm glad you mentioned because I'm curious to see what sorts of discussions it might lead to.

I'm a SAHM who writes. Talk about feeling invisible.

[identity profile] lisamantchev.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
I'm a SAHM who writes. Talk about feeling invisible.

What you just said.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
<3 Thank you. I'm honestly just glad it makes sense.

[identity profile] mcurry.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
Huh. When I read something really brilliant, I'm not at all sure that the author is still invisible to me. Maybe this is because I spend too much time talking to/with/about writers, so my perception isn't the same as a "normal" reader.

I have a friend who works for the state here who, in addition to the usual "must be nice to be able to not work hard" comments also gets people declaring jealously over the fact he now gets Fridays off....because the state decided to save money by not paying him (and other state employees) to work 5 days, rather than increasing taxes. Yeah, unpaid days off are awesome when you have a mortgage and other expenses.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
...yah, I can see how the charge of hobbyism and dabbling and illegitimacy would be levelled extra hard at people in that situation.

[identity profile] hominysnark.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
I just commented on pretty much this exact same thing over on Lynn Flewelling's journal -- I run into people all the time who seem to resent the fact that I enjoy my work.

My initial instinct is to tell these people to fuck off, which generally does nothing to decrease the resentment factor.

[identity profile] lisamantchev.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
With both the writing and the parenting, I get a lot of "Well, your husband IS a _____" so as to completely disregard any contribution, financial or otherwise, I make. And it's a very weird balance of "how cute, you write because you don't have anything better to do while at home with your kid!" and "how long did it take you to write/publish that book, because I'm totally thinking about doing the same thing." Then, yanno, HULKSMASH. *L*

[identity profile] dichroic.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
I really can't recommend Fadiman's two books of essays, "Ex Libris: Confessions of a Common Reader" and "At Large and At Small" highly enough. I have a whole shelf of books about books and reading, and those are two of my favorite things on it.

My entirely solipsist philsophy of reading is that I take the view that gets me the best to read. That means that I ignore Dorothy Sayers' horrible handling of Jewish characters and blame it on the times, for love of rest of her work, but give Mark Twain credit for being anti-racist in the context of *his* times. Because Huck Finn and Gaudy Night are great books and I don't want to deprive myself of either. It's a little harder to ignore with living authors; I'm at the point where I'm not likely to be seeking out anything new by Orson Scott Card. But if I feel like rereading a copy I already own of Alvin Maker, I'll appreciate it for what's in it, not what Card said outside the book.

[identity profile] maradydd.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
It sounds like there's a lurking assumption, among the people who give you shit about work, that since when civilians have to deal with public-sector employees it generally sucks for the civilians, that public-sector jobs must themselves be joyless and soul-sucking,

Never mind that if a public-sector job were the equivalent of, say, forty hours a week in line at the DMV, there would be no public-sector employees, as they would have all jumped out windows by now.

[identity profile] themachinestops.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
To this day, I quite literally cannot talk about anything fun that happens in my office -- silly water cooler stories, lunch table anecdotes, nothing -- in mixed company without getting some form of blowback. Period.

I admit, I've been the person to snark on the people who enjoy their work, but that's because I just hate working so much. Every minute is torture. So when someone doesn't share my torture, I feel like *I* am getting the shaft. Does this make any sense? Really, it's because I am jealous, and you (generic you, not you you) should take pity on me, not tear me down even more. Someday I hope to be in your shoes. :)

[identity profile] upstart-crow.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
It's pretty much this for poets as well, except the pay is worse, the awards are much smaller, and nobody reads you.

I laugh somedays to keep from crying.

[identity profile] dichroic.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
Kind of ironic, because if I'm remembering correctly, you wrote "Eyes Like Stars", right? If I were in a literary discussion about it, I could make the very point that your "day job"* as an SAHM thoroughly informs that book - isn't mothering (or lack thereof) a pretty central concept to it?

(I use the quotes not because I think being an SAHM isn't a job, but because I realize it isn't limited to the day.)

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
This is the tiniest consolation in the world, but, yanno. I read you. And enjoy the experience.

[identity profile] upstart-crow.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
<3! No, actually that made my night! :D Thank you!

(And I'm also moving back into novels and short stories after, well, dabbling a little when I started this gig and then pushing them aside, so there is that!)

[identity profile] txanne.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, yes, a thousand times yes, especially the "work you love is still hard work" part. (points to icon)

I think you become less invisible by continuing to blog. I know my perceptions of books changed when I started going to cons and meeting real! writers! who talked to me! because they were real! people! Talking about these things, frequently and eloquently, is the only way to destigmatize them.

I have a small disagreement with the "writers go nuts" list. I agree that writers should feel free to defend themselves in an I-am-not-your-bitch kind of way, and a living writer's personal life should be strictly off limits. Fans should respect the writer's wishes about fanfic. But responding to bad reviews...doesn't help. People are going to read the book you didn't write, and you can't win that argument. (random-writer-you, not Cristalia-you.)

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
*puts 'em on the list!*

That seems actually pretty healthy. And y'know, when you put it like that, I see the tie back to the original post better: this is the decision as to whether the relationship between the reader and the book is a couple or a threesome, with the author in bed with you too.

Mine is similar on the purchasing front. I'll stop purchasing -- or when I was at the bookstore, twice decided to stop handselling -- the work of authors whose personal actions raised my eyebrow high enough that I actually felt no desire, period, to financially support them anymore, to the point where I couldn't effectively praise their books without getting a sour taste in my mouth. But I don't tend to make a big deal out of that, and on the whole I generally keep book and author quite seperate. Even people I don't like or agree with frequently have interesting things to say.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
Oooh. That improves my day mightily. Look forward to seeing some of that. :)
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[identity profile] mmerriam.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
*nods*

I run into people who seem to be angry that I enjoy my work. I also run into people who give me shit because I'm on full disability. Obviously I'm a lazy, indulged artist who gives nothing useful back to society, because I do no real work.

People also seem to get upset and confused when they find out I'm a writer, but I'm not wealthy and don't spend endless evenings drinking cocktails at upper society functions.

[identity profile] upstart-crow.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
Yay! :D

Decemberish, baby. One'll be out in Decemberish 2010 :)

[identity profile] jennygadget.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
I would just like to applaud this entire post.

And say that when it comes to this:

Well, must be nice to have it that good and not have to work hard. You're having fun? Is that my tax dollars at work?

I am very thankful that both my parents are public school teachers AND that I have several extended family members who also work for the same county government that I do. Because this means that my work rarely gives me reason to dread family get togethers. (other things do, but not this.) Even family members that would be the most likely suspects for this type of attitude don't have those opinions (or voice them).

I do, however, get it at work from people who don't want to pay their library fines, etc.

I also learned very quickly not to complain about obnoxious customers when I worked retail - because then everyone in my family would chime in about this one time they got bad customer service. In a tone of voice that suggested that I deserved what I got because someone else was crappy at their job (or had to follow crappy corporate rules or get fired).

Since one of my stories is about ringing up my cousin's grandmother, and her never realizing it was me because she couldn't be bothered to ever look me in the face at any point during the entire transaction, you can imagine how I felt about that.

This is actually part of what promoted my last blog; I neeeded a place to vent about the people that argued with me about whether or not Mark Twain wrote Huck Finn - because I could not do so anywhere else and still feel heard.

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No answers at the moment for your last question, though. Except for some unexamined ideas about writer's blogs - and other ways of connecting authors and readers - being a useful thing.

[identity profile] lisamantchev.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
It's pretty much this for poets as well, except the pay is worse, the awards are much smaller, and nobody reads you.

Ow.

*offers banana-slips and rubber chickens and Eddie Izzard clips to help you laugh*

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
Hrm. Yeah, it's a generalization I'm hanging that on, and really reader-dependent. I mean...for me? It's rare that the author's invisible, mostly because I'm a writer who hangs out with writers and was trained in critical theory at a university to look for the evidence of writers. It's just how I read at this point.

That said, the books that can swallow me whole and draw me down so deep that I forget to look for the writer are the ones I cherish, the ones I reread and push on others.

Eesh. That's wicked. As is the perception that having your income cut by 20% is something one somehow deserves, whether it's read as a privilege or not, by virtue of working for the state.

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