leahbobet ([personal profile] leahbobet) wrote2010-02-03 09:59 pm

Employment, entitlement, and the arts.

All right, kids, buckle up. I'm going to ramble a bit.


[livejournal.com profile] matociquala posted last night on her workweek and how long it takes her to write a book. What this post is actually about, although it comes clearer in the comments, is another aspect of the question that spurred it: The perception of authors as overpaid, spoiled, wealthy, greedy or...maybe just indulged members of our society. The perception, in short, of art as a class of work valued less than other classes of work.

I tangle with this thing a lot.

I am a working writer. No, I am not a writer who has a novel in print (and we'll get into the hobbyist perception that goes with that another time), but I am a writer who has been writing for eatin' money since early 2003 or so, which is when I started being reliably paid for stuff. Trufax: in second year I regularly paid my phone bill with the dribs and drabs of money from poetry sales. Writing still composes a non-major, but non-trivial part of my household income: My support staff and moderation gig at the OWW helps me keep chipping away at my school debt, and Shadow Unit, while not even remotely paying for the time we put into it at this juncture, kicked me enough cash last year to cover a month's worth of groceries and (non-rent) bills.

As [livejournal.com profile] truepenny has pointed out this week it's very hard to make ends meet as a writer. So unlike Bear and Sarah, I am also the proud possessor of a full-time Dayjob with really solid benefits.

My Dayjob is in the public sector, which is another place with some class-of-work issues.

There was a point early last year, when I was still fairly new to the job and quite blissful about it (I have a truly great office full of truly awesome persons) where I got very upset about my inability to communicate to people outside government that I really liked my brand new job. Any enthusiasm I had about my work would be automagically translated into Well, must be nice to have it that good and not have to work hard. You're having fun? Is that my tax dollars at work? The base assumption was that because clearly all public servants are spoiled and lazy and sheltered by the hand of a government employer, the enjoyment I got out of my job must be from lying on the couch and eating bonbons instead of pounding steel all day like real manly men doing actual, real work. It couldn't be that I had a good boss, good co-workers, and interesting, intellectually stimulating work; it must have been that my work was not legitimate, not demanding. To this day, I quite literally cannot talk about anything fun that happens in my office -- silly water cooler stories, lunch table anecdotes, nothing -- in mixed company without getting some form of blowback. Period.

I've learned to work around and weather the thing since, but it was actually quite hurtful. I couldn't share a good thing about my life anywhere but with my most trusted friends. It was like trying to show someone a butterfly and having the thing -- and your hand -- pissed on and then set on fire.

So basically I get shafted coming and going on this one. Of the 60+ hours of work I put into an average workweek, none of it is considered valued or legitimate work outside of my various insider circles. I have one career where I have to step carefully if I want to express the most basic pride in my work, and one career where I have to step carefully if I want to utter the mildest complaint about it.

And that means I'm sort of fascinated by the psychology behind perception of work: Why and how do we decide which fields of work are more "real" than others? How have we somehow accorded legitimacy to some -- totally necessary -- functions in society and yet routinely disparage other -- totally necessary -- functions? Why do normally right-thinking people open their mouths and drop these assumptions onto the floor every day?


I think about this a lot. I tangle with it a lot.

I think it's something to do with a class of products or services that, to people without expert knowledge, seem to self-create or self-maintain; that we feel have always been there. It's to do with the nature of work where, when it's done right, the worker isn't even noticed.

Let me go into that a bit.

People get pissed off at customer service or restaurant wait service if it's obtrusive. People only notice that grocery store stockpersons exist when something's not on the shelf. People only remember the existence of the Ministry of Transportation when there's a pothole. People get pissy at subway repairs because the inherent and subtextual expectation is that while of course subways need to be fixed, the fixing of them should be invisible. We should never see it happen, or it has essentially failed.

People only notice the author in the text, like the waiter or subway repairman or stockperson, if they feel something has gone wrong.

If we do our job right, the logic goes -- and I'm not getting into whether this is right or wrong today -- the reader shouldn't even see us. One paragraph at the back of the book saying general things about our pets, maybe where we live. Standard words at the front about who made this book possible; all very much to the forms. Look at the emphasis that creates, just by inference: the important thing is the book. We, the authors, should be completely occluded, completely obscured by the text itself.

When I pull off a good story, a paragraph that crunches into someone's chest like a wrecking ball, the book's there in their vision and it's fifty feet tall, bright as noon, eating up everything and roaring like a cannonball.

I'm not.

I'm invisible.


Here's the problem with that notion of successful art -- a notion that okay, I can't really argue with. The notion of text that lives head and shoulders above its author, text that takes on a life of its own and forms a relationship with the reader that the author really has no part of is really kind of glorious. I think a lot of us crave it a bit: making something that's bigger than us.

Thing is, it gets really hard to assert the personal or financial rights of invisible people.

This is why the argument against writing fanfic of works whose authors are uncomfortable with it never gets anywhere. This is why things like arts grants, book prices, royalty statements, financial need are considered faintly distasteful topics in a lot of writing circles, or why we talk about them in lowered tones or prescreened company. This is why it's such a big deal when an author "goes nuts" and engages readers who criticize their book, their lifestyle, their looks, their person, and why that behaviour is stomped on and stigmatized so hard. This is why reactions such as that which occurred on the Kindle forum about this Amazon kerfuffle happen. To the greater reading public, authors are invisible people. We don't exist, and therefore neither do our needs.


The question becomes, then: how to create fiction that stands like a pillar of fire in someone else's brain, to not get between my fiction and its reader, and yet, keep myself firmly in existence?

That one's for you, team. I am sadly out of answers tonight.

[identity profile] jennygadget.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
YES.

I mean, it's one thing if the planogram isn't set by opening or we don't keep the bestseller shelves super full. It's completely different feeling if one of my patrons has to wait an extra day for the call from me telling them if we were able to find the book they thought they returned or not, or if staff can't find the last science fair book we have left because it still hasn't been shelved.

[identity profile] jennygadget.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
yup. My library system us currently doing a bunch of shuffling people around because several of the head honchos are retireing. The end result will be that will be 7 people doing the work of what was originally 11 positions when we opened two years ago. And (for now) no one is complaining because we are all happy to still have our jobs. Much less positions with slightly better pay than we had two years ago.

[identity profile] strayfish.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:16 pm (UTC)(link)
You know, I'm not even sure I mind not getting the credit, because I know the work helps people understand what they are learning (whether they realize it or not). I guess I'm more hurt when people close to me, like family, doesn't understand how or why my work helps people. :/

In our program, we're taught to try and educate people about ourselves as much as possible so that our work is given the legitmacy I believe it deserves. So even though I'm hurt, like Cristalia, I try to be an ambassador for my job and my peers and get the word out there about what we do. That happens to include pushing for co-author status where possible and teaching people to look for signs of the illustrator/designer.

I'm so happy to hear you say that you kept your old anatomy book for the illustrations. :) I like to think it's the illustrations that do the majority of the explaining in books like that... not to put authors down!

I sympathize with your public sector/medical field work, too. I think there's a similar vein of thinking when people try to make their hobby into a paying profession. Like, it would be selfish to ask for money for something you used to do for free and for fun. Unfortunately that attitude extends into many "culture"-related fields like art, writing, photography, and theatre.

I don't think Ive ever had any particular bias about public sector jobs, other than that they can be enviable for benefits and such. Maybe it's 'cause my dad used to work for Canada Pension? I never really connect the whole your-taxes-at-work = public servant thing. I'm just happy people are happy with their jobs!

[identity profile] strayfish.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Yet I'm of the mind that he should have charged his niece too! Maybe with a discount though... >_>

People should never be ashamed of making money doing something they like doing.

[identity profile] mrissa.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm. I would say that I would not want him to feel like he couldn't charge his niece. But deciding that he didn't want to charge his niece is just fine, as long as she understands it to be a gift from him--just as he could take the day's wages he got from doing my basement and spend it on something for his niece. Either way the fruits of his labor can be a gift to her if he wants them to be.

And I often send my friends and family members stories of mine for free, but that doesn't mean I feel like I owe them every story I ever write, and it doesn't mean I won't charge publishers.

[identity profile] strayfish.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
That's a fair compromise.

I guess I fear sometimes that because I do give friends free art semi-frequently, that they might feel entitled to request things from me for free whenever they want, cutting into the time I have available to make art for money. Generally my friends *aren't* like that, but I know quite a few people who are.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
There was a letter to the editor in our local paper recently claiming that what was wrong with the economy in this state was the percentage of jobs dedicated to making objects was too low and everybody else was a parasite.

We're hearing that a bunch here too: I think the nice term for it is "value-added economy," but it boils down to the same thing. Making stuff rules! Anything else drools!

I think the banking collapse and the idea of theoretical money and/or theoretical value, value you can't hold in your hand, has a lot of people scared.

[identity profile] kats-kradle.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
'Administrative assistants'

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Hee. Thank you. :)

But y'know, I do find that kind of hilarious, because looking at it from the inside out, I tend to feel like my life includes little to no style or grace or cool, period. I'm not sure if that's me I'm laughing at when I say hilarious, though... *g*

[identity profile] kats-kradle.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a lot to comment on and digest, but I'd list to just express my experiences being a temp who was in a government department.

I got it double dose. Somehow being a temp means I'm lazy, or that I don't -want- a permanent job...something. I'm not exactly up on how that mental dysfunction works. Combine that with working for the LCBO. Some of the hardest working, nicest people I've met. I was honoured to work along side them. But the shit I got. It must be nice. It must be easy. I'm sorry but the people I work along side got wicked benefits. I got none. I was on an hour to hour 'contract'. I was very, very lucky to build myself a niche there for two years (see: Managers who have a hard time with Excel). The threat of no monies was a constant one. Yet somehow I was extra lazy because not only was I working for the government, indirectly, but because I wasn't 'tied down' to the job.

I got very sick, very fast, of not being able to express my appreciation of certain aspects of the job, the FOOD & DRINK team was awesome beyond words, without getting the 'Must be nice' spiel. I started turning around going 'What part would you like? The lack of benefits? No vacation? The constant fear of dismissal? What part of that pie would you like a slice of?

Not to mention that if my agency had listed me as self employed, and they never did but I've known others who've had their agencies do that, then you don't get EI. Temp and self employed are especially taken advantage of in the case of 'We pay taxes but getting benefits should we need them is like pulling teeth via the butt'.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
(Welcome aboard. :) )

I don't know; I look at it more like...ultimate self-starter material. Because both writing and parenting are the kinds of things where it is very important to get it right, but there's no one, really, on site to hold you accountable if you don't. People have to find the extra push inside themselves.

[identity profile] mrissa.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
All this confuses me, too, because what is "value-added" and what is "productive" is completely non-intuitive to me. Like, if you grow wheat and harvest it, you're productive. That I get. If you grind the wheat into flour, does that count? If you bake it into bread? What if you sell the bread? At what point does this stop being "productive"? Because I could make the argument that nobody after the farmer is actually doing anything but adding value, but that doesn't seem to be what they mean. Because I don't think they know what they mean, is the long and short of it.

[identity profile] mrissa.livejournal.com 2010-02-04 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
And it would be extremely easy for me to be glib here and say, "The lesson is, don't make friends with jerks, and don't stay in contact with your family if they're jerks." But the things I consider minimally civil behavior are appallingly rare in some people's lives. One of my best friends told my partner he had done the nicest thing a man had ever done for her when he ordered them concert tickets (she paid for her own, he just ordered them when she said she was interested), he picked her up and drove to a moderately priced restaurant (where she again paid for her own), and then took the two of them to a concert. She was 22 years old, and taking into consideration father, brother, grandfathers, uncles, cousins, friends--this was far and away the nicest thing a man had ever done for her.

It was really upsetting to hear that. (Thankfully she has made some more decent male friends since then, and even married one.) But when that's her experience of men and also most women, it would have been no surprise if she'd ended up feeling like people were going to expect things of her for free and not value her work.

My bubble: it is a nice bubble, but I need to not forget that it is a bubble.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
Hm, good point. I wonder if this'll change the dynamic any.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't necessarily have the bias either, but my mother works for Environment Canada and has for my whole life. It's that insider's view thing.

Nonetheless, I somehow still got very aware of that stereotype, even with the insider's view.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
<3

Huh. That's a weird thing to have to reconcile, including the idea you get when you stick those assumptions together that getting paid to do nothing = the finish line. If I'm reading you right?

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
I suspect you are right.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
Thankew. :)

And yeah. I think about it too: is this the kind of combination that'll lead to my head exploding from a certain lack of external reinforcement? Because apparently I'm at least 2% attention whore, and I need to be loud and cool and sparkly somewhere, y'know?

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Temps get screwed.

I'm interested to see what happens when the new temporary worker legislation gets all through the system; how things change, and what doesn't change, etc.

[identity profile] tithenai.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
You are. Exactly. I guess that's where the idea of such jobs being "cushy" comes from.

[identity profile] leahbobet.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
I'd go out of my skull with boredom. But y'know, YMMV.

[identity profile] pwyrzykowski.livejournal.com 2010-02-05 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
Funny, to me an author is always someone very much human - I have ongoing conversations in my head with some of them. Especially because I find that I follow certain themes in literature, and often a writer I like will appear to have the same obsessions as myself. So I try to imagine their childhood, what shaped them, etc.

And on a different note, I think many fields of work come with attendant stereotypes - mine is usually either: "you are so noble to be sacrificing so much to help the unfortunates of this world" or, its rather more hostile flipside: "who do you think you are to think you can change the world?". Underlying both reactions is the fundamental assumption that I got into my line of work in order to save the world, which is not the case. It's hard to explain to people that I do what I do for the same reasons that I write, because my work engages me on a personal level, taps into things that obsess and fascinate me for very subjective reasons that don't require much altruism on my part. And also that I wouldn't do it if I didn't love it.

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